Kids.

It's SO cold here! We get condensation on our window seals... like it's bad.  More like puddles of water than just plain ol' condensation. But get this: it was frozen today.  Yes, frozen.  A tiny bug could ice skate safely on it if it wanted.  Needless to say that the kids and I almost froze when we had to make a run to Walmart as well as Kmart earlier.  I'm. So. Ready. For. Warm. Weather.


Anyway! enough about weather-- 

Last night as I was getting up with miss Kailey, who thinks she has to have at least 3 bottles a night, I started thinking about kids in general.  For some reason, when I woke up... I was awake.  As in wide awake at 4:30am.  One of those moments when if you force yourself to go back to sleep, you wake up all groggy.  And of course, I'm going back to sleep because it is 4:30am... way to early to be rising out of the comforts of bed.  Kids are awesome.  I love my kids so much.  They are so much fun! Yes, stressful sometimes and often messy... but still, so I find so much enjoyment when I look at them.  I have no idea what Michael and I did before Haiden was born.  I mean we enjoyed our time together, but it's nothing compared to the joy that Haiden brought to our lives. I went from that thought to thinking about this next baby... I am almos 75% done with having kids. We are agreeing to a total of four, which means after this third one... well, I will be nearly done! lol And, believe it or not... I've decided that I actually enjoy being pregnant.  There is definitely a downside to being pregnant, but at the same time you get to experience a true miracle occurring within yourself and family.  Simply put, it's amazing.  I felt once we had Haiden, that I put myself on a time clock bc I don't really want to have widely spread out ages within my kids.  I'd like them to be kinda close.  Which then brought me to thinking about a future baby #4... I'd like to have that one when Kailey is at least 2.  I'd prefer 2 and a half since this third one is close in age to Kailey.  They will be 15 months apart, which means super young ones for me to take care of at once.  I know it's totally doable and people have babies that close or closer in age all the time, but still. It's a lot. SO Haiden will be almost 4 when this current baby will be born, which means that he will be atleast 5 1/2 to 6 when  #4 is born.  THEN! I started thinking about how Haiden will be starting school and no longer at home with me.  We've lived our lives with me being able to stay home with him ever since he was born and I'll admit thinking about him going to school brings tears to my eyes.  I can't imagine him not being home with me! lol Okay, I know I will have Kailey and baby 3, but I will miss my little man so much it hurts. That's when I know how much I truly love being with him and how much I cherish this time I get while he is young and not in school.  (I'm tearing up now.. gosh i'm a baby myself.) ANYWAY! I concluded to start thinking about a baby #4 in the future after baby #3 is one year old! So in theory sometime around July of 2012 begin trying again for the final addition to our family. That would mean Haiden would be 5 1/2; Kailey 2; and baby 3 around 18 months. This is if i'm adding right.. and that even looks scary. ha ha But, from the looks of things, I don't know where we will end up and my kids have like no close cousins!  I don't know when they will have close cousins or if they will bc at my rate my kids will be older and it won't matter by then and who knows where we will be living anyway.  It's okay though bc I already wanted kids kinda close in age... Originally I thought 2 years or so between them all.  Which didn't work out, it took us a while before Kailey came into our lives, so that proves Heavenly Father always has plans for us.  We will see.  Time will only tell where we end up and what life will be like once we get there.  And mostly, it's up to Heavenly Father who knows way more than we ever could about our life. SO waiting for time to tell-- and then of course I need to run all these late night thoughts by Michael-- plus Heavenly Father's guidance.  But it never hurts to have a sort of plan.  I also want to plan school.  I want to learn to cut hair and I can't really look into it until I know where we will end up living.. so there is that too that will need to be planned as well . ;)